9:20 AM
Weighed down
Stress is filling in me..
A phobia sets in..
Studies, Final Year Project, Professional Profiling..
Basically.. school..
I’ve failed once..
I’ve let many people down including myself..
I was a fool then..
Not now, but it’s really building stress in me..
I’m afraid one day I might loose my cool..
And I’ll hurt someone..
Someone most dear to me..
It’s by far the last thing that I would do..
But I’m afraid that it’ll just come out of me..
I’m thankful to some friends who has helped me..
Encouraging me, giving me support and giving guidance..
They are the ones who has been with me since secondary school..
Thanks guys..
I would like to thank the most is someone dearest to me - =))
She’s the one of the few reasons why I am still surviving,
striving and struggling..
She’s the source of my strength, the answer to my unreasonable prayers,
the only one that has taught me the true meaning of being loved..
I know that I’m someone quite not up to her expectations..
I know I’m not the best boyfriend she ever had..
Or she may someday may loose interest in me..
Or … (as the list goes on)
I’m living each day for her..
I’m determined to give her the best I can ever give..
To see her grow up to be the best she can ever be..
Death has an evil way of robbing Life..
One min ago you may be alive..
the next min you’re in the obituaries..
It robs away everything you planned for the future..
every thing not yet done ..
every promise kept was broken..
every resolutions not yet met..
every plan not yet carried out..
When we reach up above there..
We ask ourselves, what have we not yet done..
We’ll break down and cry for those things not yet done..
Thus now..
I’m going to live my day like it’s the last..
Studying hard, giving and providing her the best
with the best I can ever give..
I’ll overcome all obstacles..
even if it takes my pride, my integrity or my life..
Just incase I may not able to see dawn after dusk..
Dear,
I can say “I love you” till you get irritated and numb..
But it’s the only few words I can say..
Remember the first time I said something in your sleep..
I meant every word and alphabet in it..
I don’t care how many negative aspects you have..
It’s you that I love and will cherish..
Not the positive aspects..
I would trade my happiness to see your smile and giggle..
To see you become someone your family and friends are proud of..
I know sometimes I maybe stubborn..
I’m deeply sorry if I ever made you feel dejected or pissed off..
It’s totally fine if you vent all those frustrations at me..
Today was the earliest I ever came to school..
Reached woodlands interchange at 730am..
For the sake of my stupid laptop..
That’s the sacrifice you need to take..
To accommodate the ever long queue the IT helpdesk has..
Dear.. I love you so much..
So much till you’ll never know how much..
It’s totally fine if you loose interest in me one day..
Cause I’m not a very good boy..
Every morning is a challenge to open our eyes..
To be alive
Hope I’ll be able to make it pass the night.
I’ll live each day like it’s the last.
Love you always..
O_X =))
O_X =))
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