10:48 PM
I'm feeling rather disappointed with myself..
and i think i ought to be..
This relationship means alot to me..
thus i am sensitive to anything that happens..
this saturday is the 14th..
it's not just a date of any month..
or like any other special date that I will get super lucky..
but it's a date which I'm always looking to every month..
it signifies something very important to me..
as it was 14/2/07 that we started of..
for the first few 14th of each month..
we spent those days to ourselves..
be it just the normal tanning, cable car ride, and sky-dining..
Last month's 14th did not turn out great..
I made a stupid decision and..
cancelled the kayaking trip to get her wrist treated..
which resulted her in feeling dejected and disappointed..
which eventually ruined the whole day..
I told myself I'm going to make it up the next 14th..
seems like it's not going to come to past yet..
She's going to work from 3pm-1am..
so only the morning is free..
The thought of asking her to not work..
and spending time with me did pop out in my head..
though I knew it's really selfish to do that..
knowing that her parents only allows her to work on Saturdays..
and she also loves her work alot..
as it is where she can have fun with her colleagues..
eating and scooping ice cream..
The last time we quarrelled..
she did think of working..
it showed me that her work can relieve her from her problems..
that's how much her work means to her..
The thought of asking her to not work for me..
really shows how selfish i am..
even knowing it..
the thought simply just stays in my mind..
that's why i'm really disappointed with myself..
Though sunday is kayaking day with my classmates..
and she's going to love it I'm very sure..
but there's still so many people around..
I really love their company..
but I look forward to days whereby I can be with =)) alone..
No disturbances.. just fun peace joy and laughter..
Maybe because this week I've spent very little time with =))
and this saturday happened to be the 14th..
and only the morning is available for us..
Maybe I shld listen to her..
I shld take it as preparation for my NS.
We ain't going to see each other as often as now..
when I get into NS next year..
It's also the period of time when feelings for each other..
will be brought to the test..
it'll show how strong our love for each other is..
Anyway I just hope I can make saturday's morning worthwhile..
Looking on the brightside..
I'm really happy to know that my software team..
manage to overcome a problem that plagued them..
for a few weeks..
Thanks to =))'s and Angie's hardworking and persistence..
A huge load of burden was lifted off their shoulders for the time being..
At least they do not have so much stress prior to week15..
All they have to do now is understand Uart..
and explain to my Labview team..
which is progressing steadily despite of afew hardware problems..
Good job guys !!!
ENDURE !!!!
O_X =))
O_X =))
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