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NAME: Bennett

Nicknames: O_X

Gender: Dick

Colours: Blue & White

Birthday: 25 July 1985

Horoscope: Leo

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Saturday, August 4, 2007

7:40 AM

Yes..

I was disappointed and sad..

When I found out she lost our ring..
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Actually..

I felt funny for a very long time..

Wearing our ring alone..

it took me some time to put off the idea..

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So I read her most recent post..

Wasn't angry or disappointed with her..

Instead was disappointed and angry with myself..

I know she did not had any intention at all..

But I just can't help it..

I should not have cancelled the kayaking trip..

And instead chose to get her right wrist fixed..

I wanted to get her wrist fixed as it concerns her health..

but it seems it's a very wrong decison..

I always seem to make stupid decisions..

I should have known she doesn't fancy rings..

I would't have not bought them..

And all of these wouldn't have happened..

There's no ring to be lost..

No tears to be shed..

No feeling to be hurt..

Buying those rings were also my decision..

No more rings?
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She asked me why sometimes I feel sad and moody..

I feel this way not because of my studies or my family..

But because sometimes she makes me feel very lousy..

I've put all my attention and focus into the relationship..

But sometimes I feel unnoticeable..

I hoped to get more attention..

I feel I'm a nobody to her at times..

Other times I get jealous..

Overheard conversations saying..

she and so-and-so like very close..

wonder so-and-so like her blah blah blah..

Am I invisible or something?

I don't know how to tell her how i feel..

It's really not that simple..

I guess that's how I become either moody or sad..

Then I would feel rather sensitive to whatever she does..

Her little laughter with someone else..

or a little action..

It makes me feel angrier..

On a few occasions she accidentally mentioned..

my so-and-so..

and on one occasion mentioned her ex-boyfriend's name..

It made me feel sad..

There was once in the start of everything..

that I found out she still liked her ex..

It made me very sad..

So I did hope it wouldn't be a repeat..

Maybe I'm just overly sensitive..

I don't know..

but it just made me super lousy..

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Those were some of the lousier days..

Still I'm happy to be with her..

To hope and share the rest of life with her..

Everyone..

Taxi driver, my Race Management friends, my classmates etc.

says she's a very nice girl..

And Yup..

I have I am I will..

Put my heart and soul..

and will cherish her..

Cause..

I just love her so much..

O_X =))

O_X =))