11:28 PM
Emology..
Whenever I'm down..
or I feel alone..
I'll browse through the photos we took in the past..
it's because that's the time I really enjoyed myself..
it reminds me those times spent..
and a glimpse of hope that it will happen again..
as promised when we crossed our fingers..
combined with striking our thumbs..
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These few days..
I've been viewing the photos quite frequently..
I feel very transparent..
It's like I'm starting to be a nobody..
I don't feel special to you anymore..
I felt special in the past..
you made me feel so but not now..
I begin to feel secondary and neglected..
It's been a long time since..
we went out together without any distractions..
We usually meet after class or go out and have fun..
just the 2 of us and noone else..
laughing and joking without anyone disturbing..
movies on Fridays are like mandatory..
Everyday when the day ends..
there was a hunger to go out with each other..
avoiding the ever much noisy crowd..
spending the rest of the day peacefully..
before calling a day..
now..
everything have changed..
it's so secondary..
I'm like a 2nd-hand item..
worries fills in..
when your absence is in my presence
i'm having alot of difficulties..
getting used to the changes..
as everyday i start my day..
with the same feel 8 months ago..
the feeling which never changed..
despite the environmental change..
still as strong and passionate as before..
maybe that's why i break down more often these days..
i go home with a heavy heart..
my legs are weak and my mind is heavy..
but my soul still believes in O_X =))..
as said..
"The higher you climb..
the deeper you fall "..
I need to get use to all of these..
As i personally forecast..
I'm going weather this storm for a very long time..
Where has all those promises made, gone to?
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I'm slpy..
I wanna get my PP done..
but ain't in the mood..
I miss sailing..
I miss driving the boats..
I miss doing many stuff..
Browse through the photos..
finally booked the Singapore Flyer sucessfully..
14 Match 2008 will be the special day..
hope nothing crops up on that day..
I'm not giving up..
Cause I believe..
Tomorrow will be a better day..
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Goodnight world..
Goodnight =)) ..
O_X =))
O_X =))
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